| the difference between you and me |
[31 May 2005|01:14pm] |
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heart's heavy like Libra's weighted scales
forging a balance between
the aetherial and celestial
mind and body are foreign to each other, like night and day
cain and abel's benefactors
a messiah of sorts
two bodies of one accord; parasitic splendor at it's best...
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| blah blah blah yackety smackety |
[31 May 2005|01:08pm] |
rings of neptune
blue lagoons last rites performed
under the blood moon
mars is jealous with envy and scorn
while babes choke on candy corn
cold temperament tempered like steel
secret suspicions taint the lips of prophets
passing like a plague frome burgeois to commonman
no future is written during out attempt to set the pins up to fall
bitter dismay cracks skulls like ice
and all the time the jester laughs...
laughing
and laughing loudly with a hint of madness that shines with true wisdon
i know it all
just as you all suspected.
you were just a key to my home.
and locks were so easily replaced
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| a letter to the girl next door |
[31 May 2005|11:44am] |
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"Dead Men Tell No Tales"- The Receiving End of Sirens |
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every time we see each other it's like some lost ancient secret has been unearthed
everytime we were together, everytime we hugged, everytime we kissed; you magic penetrated me to the core
bruising, mending, tearing, feeding, breaking me
secretly i loved you with an intensity not known to most
but around others...we were just "friends"
i never will understand why she could never take hold the way i did
whether near or far, my heart was always right beside yours,
your's was somewhere else...
probably with him. or him. or him.
it was always someone other than me, but at least you smiled
to this day; your face will bring feelings of joy and regret and i'll completely know the schematics of how our symbiosis worked
but i can never forgive you for making me the runner up again and again...
time after time, your eyes locked with mine, telling me everything i've wanted to hear all along, and seconds later i watched as one by one they fell into their spell. like a snake and it's prey
i was never fooled so easy, i knew they were beckoning to me even behind the veil their true meaning shined bright to me every time.
and yet you still chose him
and that's what binds me in these shadows
anyways,
thanks for making me feel loved loving me
really, cause even second hand love has it's place in the world
and apparently it's reserved for guys like me.
i wish i could be like him sometimes
the great pretender
the beast of a man
that makes his intentions concrete and takes what he wants
but i cant
because thats not me
im that guy that kept you buoyant during hard times, the one that would call just because,... the one that ends up always saying that hes happy that you found someone.
until now.
the blood from my heart will soak my sleeves no longer.
it's time for a change
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| ...here on the backend of forever..i wish i would never hurt again. |
[24 May 2005|12:05pm] |
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"Katamari Damacy Theme" |
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"i over heard that you were unhappy too"
=) i dunno why, but that line makes me smile really big
yeah so my birthday is on thursday, party on friday
this will be one not too miss...trust me
seriously.
i throw partys like darth vader throws fits.
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| surround me...like an amoeba |
[12 May 2005|12:51pm] |
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"I Need Love" - LL Cool J |
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The Keys to Your Heart
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You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. |
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. |
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. |
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. |
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. |
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. |
In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered. |
everythings is right except the part about feeling confined...
i need love=)
lol
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| uhhhhh??? |
[07 May 2005|06:06pm] |
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"Fugue#7777"-Katamari Damacy Soundtrack |
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ok so yeah, im a lil "out of it"
but hears how it goes, right?
so my stomach growls and the toaster oven dings and {WHAMO} i got not 1 or 2 folks, but 3!!
yes! Three plump hot corndogs pop out!
YESSSSSSS
so anyways after covering the plate with a creek of mustard,
i proceeded to make a sound of ketchup.
but when i opened the top..
what do i see but legions of ants pour out the bottle...
and i think to myself..
did i just fucking see that???
nah...
get another bottle.
it's fine..
mmm...corndogs...good.
?
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| Burn one for... |
[27 Apr 2005|01:15pm] |
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"Siren's Passage"- Age of Ruin |
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flirts
orange juice
butterfingers
katamari damacy
ninjas
great sex
hopeless romantics
killswitch engage
ricki awesome
beanbag chairs
white russians
myspace.com
text messaging
opium
my lil bro, D
honor
iPods
oral sex
little boobs
multiple orgasms
car rides with the top down
gitaroo man
star wars
tattoos
piercings
me
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| rackem rackem rackbar |
[25 Apr 2005|04:15am] |
yeah so another day
another dollar
at the end i hoot and holler
i do not eat green eggs and ham.
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| onehundredeightyonesecondsofexistence |
[11 Apr 2005|01:29pm] |
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"Let the Poison Spill From Your Throat" - The Faint |
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00:10
slipping down the rabbit hole
slowly into inescapable darkness...
00:32
trying to gain balance in a void is really near impossible
but it seems everything is happening with a certain surreality
that mimicks a dream.
00:49
giants. beasts. creatures. what should i call them? whatever they are; one thing is for certain. they haunt no other soul but mine. i can feel them tear their way through my insides, spilling lifeblood and vicera.
01:24
light floods into my eyes, and its' blinding presence baptizes and binds.
i suddenly feel as though God himself has lifted me above this world, above the clouds, the stars and moon; straight to the heavens.
01:54
starting to feel the differences; taking in all possible solutions.
still bewildered and lonely, plauged and powerless, but full of zeal.
02:15
all words lose meaning; all thoughts are halted. brain spasms. words..materialize and scatter as soon as they came..tears start to fall...trickling like blood from busted eardrums...sanity and solemness are replaced with nothing more than soft words and psychotics.
03:00
at the moment of rapture when heart and mind are one, i lose conciousness.
pictures, shapes, matter, formulas...none of it means a thing. as frivolous as a grain of salt. i've lost my grip on reality.
03:01
i wake to find myself falling.
and falling all over again..
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| "...maybe i could see you on the holidays..." |
[23 Mar 2005|01:42pm] |
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"Water Wings"- Alexisonfire |
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sometimes i feel as if the whole worlds' against me
i'm tired of these 2 day crushes i endure from girlies
where the hell are the girls who are tired of bullshitting???
SHEESH!
is it so wrong for a guy to want something real; and not just doin it alot?
oh and by the way, if anyone wants to do it...
well, i guess you can call me for that too... <3
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| eating spagetti o's right before the nuclear halocaust |
[17 Mar 2005|11:26am] |
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"Katie Couric"- Black Rose Black Death |
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happy st. patricks day you irish motherfuckers =)
i have adapted the holiday to include a "green" of my own;
damn i feel like the mighty Thor...
soaring through the air on a cloud of cheeba puffs
"...OH...OH..WHOAWHOAWHOA!"
yeah, so the way i see it from way up here
im zaphod beezlebrox
two headed and geminian
erratic in nature, passionate from birth
aspiring to be president of the galaxy
yeah, sooooo....=)
as you can tell i have been captured by the great book "The Hitchiker's Guide to the Galaxy". If you have never read it then it's excusable, but if you have never even dared to check it out; then you are a complete and utter fool.
it rocks; it's like a British humor satire Tao-ism sci fic story.
what more could you want???
i was looking at some old pictures of me and my bro today that cracked me the fuck up! i look way different. but darrell looks about the same.
but i guess the only difference is that my big ass shrunk a little.
"i dont wanna get vexed...i dont wanna lose my cool.."
yeah so anyways
to end this short simple and to the point
bye.
p.s.- im high. =*
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| take this->http://www.okcupid.com |
[03 Mar 2005|12:44pm] |
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The Playboy
Random Gentle Sex Master (RGSMm)
Clean. Smooth. Successful. You're The Playboy.
You're spontaneous, and your energy is highly contagious. Guys therefore find you fun to be around, and girls find you compelling. You have lots of sex, and you manage it all without seeming cheap or being hurtful. Well done. You probably know karate, too.
It's obvious to us, and probably everyone else, that you're after physical rather than emotional relationships, but you're straight up with potential partners. And if a girl you want isn't into something casual, it's no big deal. You move on. BEFORE sleeping with her. Usually. At least you try to. Such control is rare.
If you're feeling unfulfilled, maybe you should raise your standards. New conquests will only be satisfying if there's a possibility of rejection.
ALWAYS AVOID: The Priss
CONSIDER: The Dirty Little Secret, The Nurse
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| my own personal placebo |
[03 Mar 2005|11:57am] |
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"Daft Punk Is Playing At My House"- LCD Soundsystem |
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so yeah
im thinking the best part of getting laid is the part where the other persons eyes light up real bright right before they explode.
whats your favorite part?
[sighs]
ha.
about goddamn time
beware ladies my ubersexy and suave evil twin is back...
mothers hide your daughters...
daughters hide you vaginas..
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| where have all the cowboys gone? |
[21 Feb 2005|12:28pm] |
ok first of all
all this drama is gay
rule#1 no more drama unless im involved
seriously, im bored and lonely;
someone keep me company,
read me a story
lay me
something???
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[15 Feb 2005|02:58pm] |
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"Regret"- New Order |
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look how much my dad looked like me when he was 18. actually it's like a perfect combination of me and my bro.anyways check it out. he looks like carl weathers in Predator..
this is just plain weird.
[post an oldie of yo pappy or mammy]
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| hey yo! it's skip it! everybody's doing it. |
[10 Feb 2005|02:09am] |
If you read this,
even if I don't speak to you often,
post a memory of
me.
It can be anything you want,
it can be good or bad,
just so long as
it happened.
Then post this to your journal to see what people remember about
you.
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| please, oh please |
[08 Feb 2005|01:30pm] |
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"To the End"- My Chemical Romance |
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you know what?
rarely do i ask for much...
but really,
if someone doesn't shower me with attention for once this valentine's day
then i will personally steal each and every valentine from everyone else myself and start myself on the slow course to world domination
thank you
that is all for now...
DONT JUST STAND THERE YOU IDIOT!!
DO IT!!!
PS. AND FUCK MARDI GRAS UP ITS FRENCH ASS!
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[02 Feb 2005|01:31pm] |
by the way
someone come get high as fuck with me
i need to smoke some chihui hui!
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